Monday, December 23, 2013

Love letter to my future other half :)

Maybe it sounds weird. A love letter should be written for the people we've already known. I haven't known you, the one whom this love letter should be addressed to. Whoever you are my future other half, this love letter is special for you :)
May i guess who you are? Don't worry, i won't compare you with my imagination. I think it is normal when a girl has an imagination of her future other half. Once again, i wanna make sure that I love you just the way you are :)

Hmmm probably you're a pious man who does shalat on time and recites Qur'an after maghrib time, maybe you're a man who treats your mother like a queen, you're a man who visits bookshop every month, you're a man who spends the day at coffeshop while reading a book after having a hard day at work. Are you joining John Green's series? How do you liking it so far?
Are you a type of man who wears glasses? Are you a smart guy? Are you a globetrotter? Are you a brave man who impresses other people with your awesome speech? Are you a type of man who loves booktalking? Are you a man who dies to expert on Japanese and French languages?
I know you're not perfect, so DON'T TAKE IT SERIOUSLY okay? haha.

I don't know how Allah arranges His way for us, i mean how and when we're going to meet. Maybe we've met before or we haven't met but we've known each other. I don't know. I'm a bit tired yet excited of wondering who you are. I have been expecting to meet you soon. Dear my future other half, I'm not busy dating with men while waiting for your coming. I'm busy pursuing my dreams and busy preparing myself to be a great partner for you. Some men tried to attract my attention, but you know I'm not the type of girl who wastes my time in a "trash relationship" anymore. Many people often questioning why I have been being single for a long time. I used to be known as a girl who is very busy pursuing my dreams and future career. I don't want to be a "brainless trophy wife" for you. Whatever your profession is, I wanna be your best discussion partner. I enjoy and love deep discussion, that's why you may ask me whenever you need a discussion partner. I wanna be smart, bright, beautiful, talented and everything you can hope for in a girl. But don't worry, I will step back and support your dreams and career as well because I deeply understand that your dreams are mine too.

When we meet later, i'll ask you to have a midnight booktalk with me and we build our own library at home. I'm not that sweet in expressing my feeling, but laying down on your arm while we're reading in silence is very romantic for me. It feels good to finally be able to meet you in the future. My life has found it's missing piece. I love you because of Allah...

your future other half :)

Saturday, December 21, 2013

Oh Tokyo, how i miss thee!!

Tokyo must be so wonderful this month! The streets get brightly lit with beautiful winter illuminations. Oh Tokyo, how i miss thee!

Tuesday, December 3, 2013

Another day, another dream comes true

I'm invited as one of the speakers in this program. Jika ada waktu luang silakan datang besok pukul 15.30 WIB, talkshow ini GRATIS! :)
Semoga sharing pengalaman yang saya berikan besok bisa banyak menginspirasi anak-anak muda supaya berani bermimpi dan action. Untuk saya sendiri, semoga pengalaman yang saya share ke audience bisa membuat saya bisa lebih rendah hati karena semua dari Allah, atas ijin Allah.
Saya pernah menulis "ingin jadi pembicara yang menginspirasi anak-anak muda" di list mimpi saya tahun 2013 ini. Alhamdulillah another day, another dream comes true. God is good :)

Monday, December 2, 2013

That's what friends are for

Lama banget rasanya ga nulis di blog *tiup-tiup debu di blog*
What is the newest? I already finished my undergraduate study yay! Sudah beberapa bulan yang lalu sebenarnya, i'm just too lazy to write it on blog. Sorry :)) and my graduation ceremony will be on March.
As a fresh graduate, semuanya pasti pernah merasakan "galau". Untuk studi lanjut atau kerja. Sebuah pilihan yang sulit (untuk saya). Mungkin untuk beberapa orang bukan pilihan yang sulit karena sudah mempunyai kemantapan pilihan jauh-jauh hari.
Bulan lalu saya dipanggil test salah satu multinational company besar di Indonesia, but i didn't make it. Test kerja  di multinational company itu yang pertama bagi saya. Well, i was killed by GMAT test LOL :) tapi mungkin belum rejeki untuk kerja disana.
Bukan kegagalan test itu yang ingin saya share disini. Saya ingin share kalo saya beruntung. Saya beruntung punya banyak teman yang care dan ada di saat saya ada di atas atau di bawah.
Akhir-akhir ini kegalauan mau studi lanjut atau kerja datang lagi, but i'm so happy to have Fika as one of my best friends. Kita pertama ketemu di Bangkok, Thailand tahun lalu sebagai delegasi Indonesia di Asean Student Forum. Setelah kita balik ke Indonesia, kita jadi temen deket. Kita punya kesamaan, sama-sama suka kopi dan buku, perbedaannya Fika suka pak Gita Wirjawan dan saya suka pak Marty Natalegawa :p
Semalam saya bbm Fika, "Fik, tell me one strong reason why you take that path", and her answer warmed my heart
"Life and Love. Life is too precious to be usual and too short to be ordinary. Will you stand on zero ground while enormous opportunities are waiting for you?. Love is the way you praise God for gracious life. The more you know the world the more you love you have, to God and His blessing life. Learning is about knowing and knowing is never ending process. The knowing is upper hand than the not, as God says. So, don't you want to be the knowing? God indeed encourages us to learn as much as possible no matter how far, how hard, and how long to know each other better for better future"
Seketika saya langsung buka dream book yang saya punya dan membaca lagi mimpi-mimpi yang saya ingin raih. Saya lupa jika saya pernah menulis mimpi besar itu dengan semangat. Saya senang ketika punya teman dengan visi yang sama, kita bisa saling mengingatkan tentang mimpi-mimpi yang kita punya. That's what friends are for, for good times and bad times. And there's so much more i see, and so by the way i thank you. Thanks Fika! :)

Saya semakin yakin setelah ini saya akan kemana. Tugas saya adalah terus bekerja keras supaya mimpi-mimpi itu menjadi nyata suatu hari nanti. Jika ketentuan Allah berbeda dari keputusan yang saya ambil, saya akan biarkan Allah bekerja, karena Dia yang punya kendali pada hidup saya. Saya bahagia karena saya berusaha "menghidupkan" mimpi-mimpi saya :)

Thursday, April 18, 2013

Date a Girl Who Reads

Date a girl who spends her money on books instead of clothes. She has problems with closet space because she has too many books. Date a girl who has a list of books she wants to read, who has had a library card since she was twelve.

Find  a girl who reads. You'll know that she does because she will always have an unread book in her bag. She's the one lovingly looking over the shelves in the bookstore, the one who quietly cries out when she finds the book she wants. You see the weird chick sniffing the pages of an old book in a second hand book shop? That's the reader. They can never resist smelling the page, especially when they are yellow.

She's the girl reading while waiting in that coffee shop down the street. If you take a pick of her mug, the non-dairy creamer is floating on top because she's kind of engrossed already. Lost in world of the author's making. Sit down. She might give you a glare, as most girls who read do not like to be interupted.

Ask her if she likes the book.

Buy her another cup of coffee. Let her know what you really think of Murakami. See if she got through the first chapter of fellowship. Understand that if she says she understood James Joyce's Ulysses she's just saying that to sound intelligent. Ask her if she loves Alice or she would like to be Alice.

It's easy to date a girl who reads. Give her books for her birthday or for anniversaries. Give her the gift of words, in poetry, in song. Give her Neruda, Sexton, Cummings, Pound. Let her know that you understand that words are love. Understand that she knows the difference between books and reality but by God, she's going to try to make her life a little like her favourite book. It will never be your fault if she does.

She has to give it a shot somehow.

Lie to her. If she understands syntax, she will understand your need to lie. Behind words are other things: motivation, value, nuance, dialogue. It will not be the end of the world.

Fail her. Because a girl who reads knows that failure always leads up to the climax. Because girls who understand who understand all things will come to end. That you always write a sequel. That you can begin again and again and still be the hero. That life is meant to have villain or two.

Why be frightened of everything that you're not? Girls who read understand that people, like characters, develop. Except in the Twilight series. If you find a girl who reads, keep her close. When you find her at 2 AM clutching a book to her chest and weeping, make her a cup of tea and hold her. You may lose her of a couple of hours but she will always come back to you. She'll talk as if the characters in the book are real, because for a while, they always are.

You will propose on a hot air balloon. Or during a rock concert. Or a very casually next time she's sick  Over skype.

You will smile so hard you will wonder why your heart hasn't burst and bled out all over your chest yet. You will write the story of your lives, have kids with strange names and even stranger tastes. She will introduce your children to the Cat in the Hat and Aslan, maybe in the same day.

Date a girl who reads because you deserve it. You deserve a girl who can give you the most colorful life imaginable. If you can only give her monotony, and stale hours and half-baked proposals, then you're better off alone. If you want the world and the worlds beyond it, date a girl who reads

-Rosemary Urquico

Sunday, April 14, 2013

Mommy Cammy

Hello dear readers...
Wish u all doing great there. I'm doing great here as well. Lil bit busy with my thesis since i have a date with thesis everyday till midnight. But i believe, hard work will be paid off. Wish me luck :)
Today, i want to write one of my room-mates in Tokyo. She is Camilla Itokszii Garuai (Cami). She comes from Papua New Guinea. Finally i have a friend from that country hihi. I really want to have many friends in another country and i wish from all over the world.

She is very nice room-mate, pretty, humble, and smart. I talked many things with her, had a public bathing together, had a gossiping till midnight about the boy in the forum-whose-name-shall-not-be-spoken hihi, and many more. We worked in the same group, governance group. We shared many things, about the politic condition and the governance in our own country. I call her mommy since she is older than me and she is wise. When i shared my stories with her, she gave a very nice advice. That's one things that i love from Cami.
I really love to have many friends, so that's why i keep in touch with everyone, Cami as well.
I remember her nice advice "Shelia, do not ever give up on your dreams, if something is meant to be no matter how impossible it is, God will make a way"

Though we have many friends from many different countries, i think distance is not the matter. Trying to keep in touch despite the distance. Meeting many friends is such kind of blessing for me. Thanks God!

Cami and I

Thursday, April 4, 2013

I'm on Japan Web Magazine

I just found out that my photo and my group's photo in IDYF Japan appeared on Japan web magazine. Yay! :)
Unfortunately, the article was written in Japanese language. Thanks to Google translate, i could understand around 50% of the article. LOL
Here is the link for the full version

My group in IDYF - Governance group

Saturday, March 30, 2013


I don't want to be with you forever, you know. I just want to sit next to you on that bench for a little long while. Wait, i lied! I do want to be with you forever. I'm sick of being obsessed with you. I want to be obsessed with less complicated things, like books-or cooking. Maybe that's why I decided to stick with not telling the truth. It hurts less. So good bye and take care

Spring in Japan. This picture was taken around Asakusa ^^

Thursday, March 28, 2013

morning break

I always start my day with reading a book, online, then blogging. I dont know, those things really make my day. Trying to be on time in every schedule or meeting, trying to smile to everyone we know, and trying to be nice girl. When you try to do that, i bet u will be happier. Is that only personal assumption? ah whatever it is, just try and feel it!
I'm not a perfect girl who can do this and that. Sometimes, i hate people who think that i can do everything. If i can do A, then they think i can do B as well. So, they put their high expectation on me! Oh come on, i'm still a human and i'm not that perfect.
To be honest, i dont feel i've achieved much. I never thought of being an overachiever. That's not me. I simply try to be the best that i can be. I certainly hope that whatever i do will inspire other people.
Around 3 years ago, i wrote on my dream book "i wanna be smart, talented, bright, beautiful, and everything a man can hope for in a girl" hahaha, even i amazed how could i wrote that sentence? hahaha, well then i'm trying hard to realize it nowwwww errrrr :p
Have a nice day! :)

Wednesday, March 27, 2013

IDYF 2013 video

Good morniiiiiiingggg!! :)

Here i give 2 videos of IDYF Japan 2013. The first one was made by Misato Nagakawa (the general manager of IDYF) and the second one was made by Huyen, delegate from Vietnam. Hope you enjoy the videos! Have a nice day great peopleeeeeeee :)

Tuesday, March 26, 2013

I'll be back!

Me     : Mom, can I go back to Tokyo?
Mom    : Why not? Try to get scholarship for your master study there or you can work there as well
Me     : Really? *hugging my mom*

That was an unexpected conversation with my mom. At the first time, my mom didn't allow me to spend my future faraway from her, but i didn't know exactly what things happened with her, so she could change her mind haha, but i was soooo happy :))
i think my mom has already known my "strong love" with Japan. I've loved Japan since i was 5 years old. I really want to get the scholarship there for my master study, actually i plan to choose another country as well for my master study, let God does the rest to choose the best one for me.
Japan's working culture can be brutal. For the example, we get in the office at 09.00 in the morning and leave 03.00 the next morning. My heart left in Japan

Saturday, March 23, 2013

Tokyo Day 7

The last daaaaaaayyyyyyy!!! :(
It was really hard for me to leave Tokyo :(
Wish one day, i could go back there for study or even for work. Tokyo, u made me falling in love. Arigatou.

Friday, March 22, 2013

Tokyo Day 6

It was really the day. The day of group presentation. I could see many pretty nervous face, and i felt so. We did the presentation in Meiji University. Meiji University is one of the best private universities in Japan. The audiences were many students from various universities in Japan, then many professors as well. Nervous? Absolutely yes!
But anyway, my group (governance group) really made it! At the end, we got the compliment from Mr. Ryutaro Murotami from JICA'S Research Associate :))

Meiji University

Governance group - we come from different country
IDYF 2013 :)

Tokyo Day 5

Day 5 in Tokyo, i worked with my group (governance group) to make a presentation in Meiji University on Saturday. That was really a tiring day as well but i enjoyed every single things. I was soooo happy. On that day, my group was given a lecture by Mr. Ryutaro Murotani from  JICA'S research associate

Tokyo Day 4

After all delegates had a very tiring day in the previous day, finally we got a time to refresh our mind. hahaha... yay, we got sightseeing time. I went to many places around Tokyo and tried japanese food as well. I had so much fun at that time, i enjoyed the sightseeing from morning till midnight hahaha... at the first time, we visited Teijin. Teijin is Japanese famous company of humna chemistry and human solution. For more information, visit

From left to right - me, cami (papua nugini), gaby (mexico), ericka (philipine)

with Lina, delegate from Brazil

Then, i visited Asakusa. Asakusa is one of the most popular sightseeing place in Tokyo. But again, the prices are soooo expensive. You know guys, Tokyo is one of the most expensive city in the world!

with Jun Watanabe

Hachiko ^^

Tokyo Day 3

On the third day, i had working group session and plenary meeting. That was really tiring day since i worked from 9.00 A.M - 21.55 PM

Tokyo Day 2

It was spring in Japan, but it was still cold around 7-12 degrees. I had to adapt with that condition though lil bit difficult for me who comes from "hot country" haha... In the second day, i had some agendas. i had to do national report. in this session, i had to give a presentation about bad and good condition of my country (Indonesia). One of the things that made my day was the lecture on MDGs from Mr. Hiroshi Minami, he is Deputy Director General for Global Issues, Ministry of Foreign Affairs. I really enjoyed the forum :) 

Mr. Hiroshi Minami - Deputy Director General for Global Issues, Ministry of Foreign Affairs

Thursday, March 21, 2013

Tokyo Day 1

Hello everybody, long time no see you hahaha... i've been soooo busy lately. I was selected as one of Indonesian delegates in IDYF (International Development Youth Forum) in Tokyo, Japan. That was like a dream comes true. I love everything about Japan since i was 5 years old. I've ever talked to myself when i was 5, "one day i will go to Japan". Tokyo made me fall in love for sure, my heart left there. That's why i should pick up my heart one day. I'm planning to put Japan on my list for my next study or even for work there. I learned many things from Japan - being on time, discipline, and hard work. I love everything in Japan, indeed :)
I will tell completely on my next post. See u on my next post about Japan! Arigatou gozaimasu ^^

National Olympics Memorial Youth Center - the place where i stayed for a week
my room - that's not a hotel anyway but it looks like a hotel right? ^^
Opening session
Welcome party
Welcome party

Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Asean Student Forum, Thailand 2012

I know this is very very late post but, the happiness is still inside :)
I was truly happy to be selected as one of Indonesian delegates in Asean Student Forum. That was my first journey to another country. What's the next country? Ah i can't wait! :)
Thanks Allah for this priceless chance, i learnt many things!

Welcome Party

Indonesian delegates