Getting closer to Melbourne

Assalamu'alaykum dear readers...
Today, I was totally happy as soon I will get the unconditional offer from Monash University Australia. Finally, Alhamdulillah :`)
It was not a short journey for me to get it. I had to battle with IELTS test first, you have to know the truth that I haven't taken IELTS test before. I've been preparing for my IELTS test for approximately 3 months, and the result made me happy yay!. Thank you Allah for making my dream becomes reality. Then, I have to focus on getting the LPDP scholarship from the government. So, wish me tons of luck. :)
I promise myself to write the journey I've been through to you all, the ups and downs I got before getting this unconditonal offer. I'm getting closer to Melbourneeeee :`)

Self contemplation

I've been having a hard day in the past few weeks. Many things should be settled. Now I'm preparing something important for my future. I've won the first race, and now waiting for the second race.
Lately, life is like a roller coaster for me. I have to say that preparing for this is not totally easy. I'm so so so soooo tired since it takes my energy and thought a lot. I believe that if it was easy, so everyone could do it. I'm hoping that everything runs smoothly. I wanna take a break, then sit back and enjoy the ride in my roller coaster life. Allahuma yassir walatu'asir rabbi tammim bikhair. Ya Allah make it easy and do not make it difficult, make it end well. aamiin :`)

Graduation

Alhamdulillah, Maret kemarin officially lulus kuliah dengan gelar sarjana. Ada perasaan bahagia dan juga terharu sudah melewati berbagai macam fase selama kuliah. Walaupun jurusan kuliahku bukan passionku selama ini, well aku bisa melewatinya dengan baik. Ingat sekali 4 tahun yang lalu, ingin sekali rasanya kuliah di jurusan hubungan international atau managemen, tapi ortu lebih mendorong untuk masuk di pendidikan. Berhubung sudah mendapatkan PMDK saat itu, aku tidak bisa berbuat apa-apa karena peraturan dari sekolah untuk murid yang mendapat PMDK cukup ketat. Jika ingat momen-momen itu, dulu aku selalu menyalahkan diriku sendiri kenapa tidak berjuang untuk mengejar passionku. Berjalannya waktu, aku mulai belajar menerima. Tidak semua orang bisa beruntung menikmati bangku perkuliahan. Aku selalu yakin bahwa rejeki dari Allah tak akan pernah tertukar. Ibu juga pernah bilang kalau kita memaksakan sesuatu yang bukan rejeki kita, sampai kapanpun itu tidak akan kita miliki kalau Allah sudah berkehendak. Sepertinya Allah tahu passionku ada dimana dan mendengar doa-doaku, di pertengahan kuliah aku diberi kesempatan untuk menjadi delegasi Indonesia di Thailand dan Jepang. Apa yang spesial? di dua acara itu tidak ada hubungannya sama sekali dengan jurusan kuliah yang aku ambil. Aku merasa bahagia dan tanpa beban sedikitpun mengikuti forum-forum internasional tersebut. Allah seperti mengganti luka lamaku dengan sesuatu yang lebih baik. Allah memberiku kesempatan yang mungkin tidak semua anak HI dapatkan. Jika ingat kebaikan-kebaikan Allah, aku selalu menangis teringat betapa baiknya Allah sebagai "sutradara" dalam hidupku. Sekarang, semua sudah terlewati. Aku sudah mendapat gelar sarjana dan fokusku sekarang adalah melanjutkan mimpi dan mewujudkannya. Aku sedang sibuk apply-apply di perusahaan multinational di Jakarta, Alhamdulillah semuanya sudah sampai tahap akhir seleksi dan semoga aku tidak mendapat regret letter hehe... Aku juga sedang sibuk persiapan untuk test IELTS ku bulan Mei nanti, inshaAllah jika diberi kesempatan, aku juga ingin apply S2 ke luar negeri. Semoga apapun nanti rejekinya, entah kerja dulu atau sekolah lagi, inshaAllah aku siap! :)

Love letter to my future other half :)

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...
Maybe it sounds weird. A love letter should be written for the people we've already known. I haven't known you, the one whom this love letter should be addressed to. Whoever you are my future other half, this love letter is special for you :)
May i guess who you are? Don't worry, i won't compare you with my imagination. I think it is normal when a girl has an imagination of her future other half. Once again, i wanna make sure that I love you just the way you are :)

Hmmm probably you're a pious man who does shalat on time and recites Qur'an after maghrib time, maybe you're a man who treats your mother like a queen, you're a man who visits bookshop every month, you're a man who spends the day at coffeshop while reading a book after having a hard day at work. Are you joining John Green's series? How do you liking it so far?
Are you a type of man who wears glasses? Are you a smart guy? Are you a globetrotter? Are you a brave man who impresses other people with your awesome speech? Are you a type of man who loves booktalking? Are you a man who dies to expert on Japanese and French languages?
I know you're not perfect, so DON'T TAKE IT SERIOUSLY okay? haha.

I don't know how Allah arranges His way for us, i mean how and when we're going to meet. Maybe we've met before or we haven't met but we've known each other. I don't know. I'm a bit tired yet excited of wondering who you are. I have been expecting to meet you soon. Dear my future other half, I'm not busy dating with men while waiting for your coming. I'm busy pursuing my dreams and busy preparing myself to be a great partner for you. Some men tried to attract my attention, but you know I'm not the type of girl who wastes my time in a "trash relationship" anymore. Many people often questioning why I have been being single for a long time. I used to be known as a girl who is very busy pursuing my dreams and future career. I don't want to be a "brainless trophy wife" for you. Whatever your profession is, I wanna be your best discussion partner. I enjoy and love deep discussion, that's why you may ask me whenever you need a discussion partner. I wanna be smart, bright, beautiful, talented and everything you can hope for in a girl. But don't worry, I will step back and support your dreams and career as well because I deeply understand that your dreams are mine too.

When we meet later, i'll ask you to have a midnight booktalk with me and we build our own library at home. I'm not that sweet in expressing my feeling, but laying down on your arm while we're reading in silence is very romantic for me. It feels good to finally be able to meet you in the future. My life has found it's missing piece. I love you because of Allah...

Love,
your future other half :)

That's what friends are for

 Assalamu'alaykum...
Lama banget rasanya ga nulis di blog *tiup-tiup debu di blog*
What is the newest? I already finished my undergraduate study yay! Sudah beberapa bulan yang lalu sebenarnya, i'm just too lazy to write it on blog. Sorry :)) and my graduation ceremony will be on March.
As a fresh graduate, semuanya pasti pernah merasakan "galau". Untuk studi lanjut atau kerja. Sebuah pilihan yang sulit (untuk saya). Mungkin untuk beberapa orang bukan pilihan yang sulit karena sudah mempunyai kemantapan pilihan jauh-jauh hari.
Bulan lalu saya dipanggil test salah satu multinational company besar di Indonesia, but i didn't make it. Test kerja  di multinational company itu yang pertama bagi saya. Well, i was killed by GMAT test LOL :) tapi mungkin belum rejeki untuk kerja disana.
Bukan kegagalan test itu yang ingin saya share disini. Saya ingin share kalo saya beruntung. Saya beruntung punya banyak teman yang care dan ada di saat saya ada di atas atau di bawah.
Akhir-akhir ini kegalauan mau studi lanjut atau kerja datang lagi, but i'm so happy to have Fika as one of my best friends. Kita pertama ketemu di Bangkok, Thailand tahun lalu sebagai delegasi Indonesia di Asean Student Forum. Setelah kita balik ke Indonesia, kita jadi temen deket. Kita punya kesamaan, sama-sama suka kopi dan buku, perbedaannya Fika suka pak Gita Wirjawan dan saya suka pak Marty Natalegawa :p
Semalam saya bbm Fika, "Fik, tell me one strong reason why you take that path", and her answer warmed my heart

"Life and Love. Life is too precious to be usual and too short to be ordinary. Will you stand on zero ground while enormous opportunities are waiting for you?. Love is the way you praise God for gracious life. The more you know the world the more you love you have, to God and His blessing life. Learning is about knowing and knowing is never ending process. The knowing is upper hand than the not, as God says. So, don't you want to be the knowing? God indeed encourages us to learn as much as possible no matter how far, how hard, and how long to know each other better for better future"

Seketika saya langsung buka dream book yang saya punya dan membaca lagi mimpi-mimpi yang saya ingin raih. Saya lupa jika saya pernah menulis mimpi besar itu dengan semangat. Saya senang ketika punya teman dengan visi yang sama, kita bisa saling mengingatkan tentang mimpi-mimpi yang kita punya. That's what friends are for, for good times and bad times. And there's so much more i see, and so by the way i thank you. Thanks Fika! :)

Saya semakin yakin setelah ini saya akan kemana. Tugas saya adalah terus bekerja keras supaya mimpi-mimpi itu menjadi nyata suatu hari nanti. Jika ketentuan Allah berbeda dari keputusan yang saya ambil, saya akan biarkan Allah bekerja, karena Dia yang punya kendali pada hidup saya. Saya bahagia karena saya berusaha "menghidupkan" mimpi-mimpi saya :)

Mommy Cammy

Hello dear readers...
Wish u all doing great there. I'm doing great here as well. Lil bit busy with my thesis since i have a date with thesis everyday till midnight. But i believe, hard work will be paid off. Wish me luck :)
Today, i want to write one of my room-mates in Tokyo. She is Camilla Itokszii Garuai (Cami). She comes from Papua New Guinea. Finally i have a friend from that country hihi. I really want to have many friends in another country and i wish from all over the world.

She is very nice room-mate, pretty, humble, and smart. I talked many things with her, had a public bathing together, had a gossiping till midnight about the boy in the forum-whose-name-shall-not-be-spoken hihi, and many more. We worked in the same group, governance group. We shared many things, about the politic condition and the governance in our own country. I call her mommy since she is older than me and she is wise. When i shared my stories with her, she gave a very nice advice. That's one things that i love from Cami.
I really love to have many friends, so that's why i keep in touch with everyone, Cami as well.
I remember her nice advice "Shelia, do not ever give up on your dreams, if something is meant to be no matter how impossible it is, God will make a way"

Though we have many friends from many different countries, i think distance is not the matter. Trying to keep in touch despite the distance. Meeting many friends is such kind of blessing for me. Thanks God!

Cami and I

I'm on Japan Web Magazine

Hello...
I just found out that my photo and my group's photo in IDYF Japan appeared on Japan web magazine. Yay! :)
Unfortunately, the article was written in Japanese language. Thanks to Google translate, i could understand around 50% of the article. LOL
Here is the link for the full version http://dev-media.blogspot.jp/2013/03/mdgs.html?m=1

My group in IDYF - Governance group

cross-cultural-(love)???

I don't want to be with you forever, you know. I just want to sit next to you on that bench for a little long while. Wait, i lied! I do want to be with you forever. I'm sick of being obsessed with you. I want to be obsessed with less complicated things, like books-or cooking. Maybe that's why I decided to stick with not telling the truth. It hurts less. So good bye and take care

Spring in Japan. This picture was taken around Asakusa ^^

morning break

I always start my day with reading a book, online, then blogging. I dont know, those things really make my day. Trying to be on time in every schedule or meeting, trying to smile to everyone we know, and trying to be nice girl. When you try to do that, i bet u will be happier. Is that only personal assumption? ah whatever it is, just try and feel it!
I'm not a perfect girl who can do this and that. Sometimes, i hate people who think that i can do everything. If i can do A, then they think i can do B as well. So, they put their high expectation on me! Oh come on, i'm still a human and i'm not that perfect.
To be honest, i dont feel i've achieved much. I never thought of being an overachiever. That's not me. I simply try to be the best that i can be. I certainly hope that whatever i do will inspire other people.
Around 3 years ago, i wrote on my dream book "i wanna be smart, talented, bright, beautiful, and everything a man can hope for in a girl" hahaha, even i amazed how could i wrote that sentence? hahaha, well then i'm trying hard to realize it nowwwww errrrr :p
Have a nice day! :)

I'll be back!

Me     : Mom, can I go back to Tokyo?

Mom    : Why not? Try to get scholarship for your master study there or you can work there as well

Me     : Really? *hugging my mom*

That was an unexpected conversation with my mom. At the first time, my mom didn't allow me to spend my future faraway from her, but i didn't know exactly what things happened with her, so she could change her mind haha, but i was soooo happy :))

i think my mom has already known my "strong love" with Japan. I've loved Japan since i was 5 years old. I really want to get the scholarship there for my master study, actually i plan to choose another country as well for my master study, let God does the rest to choose the best one for me.

Japan's working culture can be brutal. For the example, we get in the office at 09.00 in the morning and leave 03.00 the next morning. My heart left in Japan

Tokyo Day 7

The last daaaaaaayyyyyyy!!! :(
It was really hard for me to leave Tokyo :(
Wish one day, i could go back there for study or even for work. Tokyo, u made me falling in love. Arigatou.

Tokyo Day 6

It was really the day. The day of group presentation. I could see many pretty nervous face, and i felt so. We did the presentation in Meiji University. Meiji University is one of the best private universities in Japan. The audiences were many students from various universities in Japan, then many professors as well. Nervous? Absolutely yes!
But anyway, my group (governance group) really made it! At the end, we got the compliment from Mr. Ryutaro Murotami from JICA'S Research Associate :))

Meiji University

Governance group - we come from different country

IDYF 2013 :)

Tokyo Day 5

Day 5 in Tokyo, i worked with my group (governance group) to make a presentation in Meiji University on Saturday. That was really a tiring day as well but i enjoyed every single things. I was soooo happy. On that day, my group was given a lecture by Mr. Ryutaro Murotani from  JICA'S research associate

Tokyo Day 4

After all delegates had a very tiring day in the previous day, finally we got a time to refresh our mind. hahaha... yay, we got sightseeing time. I went to many places around Tokyo and tried japanese food as well. I had so much fun at that time, i enjoyed the sightseeing from morning till midnight hahaha... at the first time, we visited Teijin. Teijin is Japanese famous company of humna chemistry and human solution. For more information, visit http://www.teijin.co.jp/english/index.html

From left to right - me, cami (papua nugini), gaby (mexico), ericka (philipine)

with Lina, delegate from Brazil

Then, i visited Asakusa. Asakusa is one of the most popular sightseeing place in Tokyo. But again, the prices are soooo expensive. You know guys, Tokyo is one of the most expensive city in the world!

with Jun Watanabe

Hachiko ^^

Tokyo Day 3

On the third day, i had working group session and plenary meeting. That was really tiring day since i worked from 9.00 A.M - 21.55 PM

Tokyo Day 2

It was spring in Japan, but it was still cold around 7-12 degrees. I had to adapt with that condition though lil bit difficult for me who comes from "hot country" haha... In the second day, i had some agendas. i had to do national report. in this session, i had to give a presentation about bad and good condition of my country (Indonesia). One of the things that made my day was the lecture on MDGs from Mr. Hiroshi Minami, he is Deputy Director General for Global Issues, Ministry of Foreign Affairs. I really enjoyed the forum :) 

Mr. Hiroshi Minami - Deputy Director General for Global Issues, Ministry of Foreign Affairs

Tokyo Day 1

Hello everybody, long time no see you hahaha... i've been soooo busy lately. I was selected as one of Indonesian delegates in IDYF (International Development Youth Forum) in Tokyo, Japan. That was like a dream comes true. I love everything about Japan since i was 5 years old. I've ever talked to myself when i was 5, "one day i will go to Japan". Tokyo made me fall in love for sure, my heart left there. That's why i should pick up my heart one day. I'm planning to put Japan on my list for my next study or even for work there. I learned many things from Japan - being on time, discipline, and hard work. I love everything in Japan, indeed :)

I will tell completely on my next post. See u on my next post about Japan! Arigatou gozaimasu ^^

National Olympics Memorial Youth Center - the place where i stayed for a week

my room - that's not a hotel anyway but it looks like a hotel right? ^^

Opening session

Welcome party

Welcome party

Asean Student Forum 2012, Thailand

Assalamu'alaykum dear readers :)

Maaf sekali jadi jarang posting akhir-akhir ini, hehe... Aktivitas akhir-akhir ini benar-benar super hectic :')
Oya sekarang ini saya sedang sibuk persiapan untuk jadi delegasi Indonesia di Asean Student Forum 2012. Asean Student Forum itu nanti akan diadakan di Thailand. Alhamdulillah saya dapat kesempatan untuk jadi delegasi Indonesia di forum tersebut. Ini benar2 seperti mimpi yang jadi kenyataan. Salah satu mimpi yang saya tulis di dream book, "jadi delegasi Indonesia di forum internasional". Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah itu terwujud. Hari Senin tanggal 12 November besok saya akan berangkat ke Thailand. Mohon doanya ya teman-teman biar disana saya dan delegasi lainnya benar-benar bisa represent Indonesia :)

Akhir-akhir ini saya merasa kalo Allah terlalu sayang sama saya, padahal saya sendiri pastinya sering mengecewakan Dia :(
Dulu cita-cita saya ingin sekali kuliah di jurusan Hubungan Internasional, tapi waktu itu ada saja halangan sehingga saya tidak jadi daftar di jurusan tersebut. Dulu menganggap kalo Allah itu tidak adil pada hidup saya karena saya ingin kejar cita-cita kok halangan banyak banget, Astaghfirullah astaghfirullah :"""(
akhirnya, sering mengeluh ke Allah ini itu :(
Time goes by, Allah memberi kesempatan saya untuk jadi delegasi Indonesia. Ini juga wujud betapa Allah memberikan better option terhadap doa-doa saya selama ini. Sekali lagi rencana Allah itu pasti baiiiiik untuk hamba-hambaNya. U know what readers, saya di forum ini mendapat kesempatan juga untuk belajar tentang materi anak-anak jurusan Hubungan Internasional tentang ASEAN, khususnya ASEAN MIND dari pakarnya langsung!!! :') saya berada di forum ini juga merupakan kesempatan yang mungkin tidak semua anak jurusan Hubungan Internasional rasakan. Betapa rencana Allah begitu luarrr biasa dalam hidup saya :"""")
Jadi, make a positive thinking as a habit. Positive thinking dilakukan dari awal sampai akhir kita mencoba dan berusaha meraih mimpi yang kita inginkan. Percayalah, Allah menjawab doa kita dengan 3 cara "YES, NOT NOW, THERE'S A BETTER OPTION". Percayalah, cintai Allah dulu maka Dia juga akan menyuruh penghuni langit dan bumi juga mencintai kita, dengan begitu insyaAllah kita sukses dunia dan akhirat :")
Bayangkan bila Allah murka, penghuni langit dan bumi juga akan murka dan membenci kita, bisa dibayangkan betapa ngerinya, sukses dunia tidak didapat, apalagi akhirat. Naudzubillah

See u in my next post tentang ASEAN STUDENT FORUM ;)
Lil bit nervous but i'm sooooo excited :)

I met Emir Qatar :)

Hellloooo :)

Yesterday i came to Management Carnival in my campus. There are many speakers there, like Muhammad Assad, Imam Subchan and the others. The seminar talked about Young entrepreneur. I love the topic so much!! Many speakers there really inspire me.

I wrote some important points from the speakers, here it is :)

"A business that makes nothing but profit is a poor business" - Muhammad Assad

"Do not limit your dream, keep dreaming on another step"

"You should lead the competition, not only join the competition"

"Do something in extraordinary way and do not skip problem and process"

"The best way to predict your future is to create it"

"Never doubt to yourself. Allah selalu kasih semua yang kita butuhkan"

In that seminar, Alhamdulillah finally i could meet Muhammad Assad. I've read his book and its really inspiring. He's a great man, no doubt if every girl amazes to him :)

oya, he is very very humble, he remembered my name, yay!! :)

wish i can meet him in another chance :)

whoever you are, thank you so much!!

Last Friday i had a fruitful chat on BBM with someone - whom - i - really - don't - know.. I don't know whether i have to call "mas or mbak", even i'm not sure who is he/she..

I always push my self to the limit when i do something or when i want to pursue something. I don't care with myself whether it will hurt me or not, whether it will make me happy or not. And, someone - whom - i - really - don't - know gave a nice advice, to be honest i cried after read that.. Oya, someone - whom - i - really - don't - know didn't complain when i called "mas", oh from that point maybe he's a boy *thinking*

"Shelia setiap manusia punya limit bukan untuk dilewati, semakin dekat dengan limit semakin lelah dan menyakitkan rasanya. Kalo kamu bisa mencapai sukses tanpa kamu push the limit itu lebih baik, usaha cerdas itu lebih baik dari usaha keras. Shelia bisa exchange tanpa harus kurang tidur dan banyak nangis, shelia bisa lakuin itu semua tanpa push the limit, just do ordinary things with extraordinary pray and for extraordinary result. Aku ga mau liat kamu banyak begadang. Kamu perempuan. Dan satu lagi, jangan meremehkan dirimu dengan berpikir kamu harus selalu menderita untuk dapat yang bagus, no pressure no diamond itu dihapus aja, ganti you get diamond with no over pressure, Allah tinggal kasi kok yang kita minta,  setuju? :)"

To be honest, i cried after i read that... That advice really in line with my condition recently.. I'm busy to prepare a big project for my dream in the last of this year and the beginning of 2013 :') 

Finally, i realize that WHAT'S THE POINT OF LOOKING GREAT ON THE OUTSIDE IF I'M NOT HAPPY INSIDE AND I'M HURT?. Now, i will not do something in order only to get achievement and spotlight from that but how it can inspire and useful for other people, emmm the important point is how it can make me happy inside and outside :')

For someone - whom - i - really - don't - know, thank you so much! :')